Yeah this is a self inflicte wound. I love this album to be fair. but yeah
I Will
Yeas, what we all missed, sadness and pain. Is this how the album started? I thought is was the rock song. what a terrible choice
A Punch Up at a Wedding
This is making me regret my whole life choices. Like ok we get it. This is just Adam Curtis background music. I’m in a mood now, it’s all kind of pointless,
I have a friend from Greece who is a Communist, he ame to visit me in Ho Chi Minh City, he is way cooler than me, he fucked these two girls because it was his dream to go to Vietnam, I was this guy who just lived there, I had fucked one girl there and used loads of prostitute, when he came to see me, he inspired me, but then you know, I’m not him
I suppose this is what it is, where do we go?
2+2=5
The anti war song. This also relates to my greek friend, we both lived in Italy at the same time, strangely our connection is my brother who is into fscist politics, but anyway, this was the song, it seems innocent now, but pressing the self destruction button and invading Iraq. why?
It was such a weird time, like if we knew then
What do you do? In the mediterranean they have fascist and communist, but then they shoot proper commies,
Go To Sleep
This is a really boring song
I’m quite often in a bad place, but I’m in another bad place. I am spending my whole day in my house doing my studies and making music. I have nobody and do nothing.
That song was boring ass shit
The Gloaming
This song is ok. I’im going for a cigarette. Oh yeah this is a good song, it’s like a film that doesnt exist, I forget, like ghosts, I believe in ghosts, it’s not like pac man they don’t chase you around, it’s like they just sort of dwell around and this song is about that, like you just exist in this world of ghosts, and then once you see it, there are ghosts everywhere.
I think all of our lives are about 30% that movie 6th sense, like you realise that you are dad, and then it makes much more sense
Myxamatosis
This is one of those songs that really chimese with me. Things die. There was a load of mxamatosits in the countryside when I was a kid, or so I was told, we had pet rabbits and wild rabbits and lots of them wer just ill and we had to kill them. and I just nevr wanted to kill anything.
I remember we used to shoot crows and rabbits with an air rifle and never hit them, and then you killed them and it was shit because they just died and you had to go and break their neck
can’t believe that was meant to be normal.
Sit Down Stand Up
Don’t like this song. I’m proper drunk and it’s 3am it’s boring. Where is ‘Wolf at the Door? This list is bogus
This is rubbish. I quit drink and then I get drunk and the whole thing just comes tumbling down
This isn’t fun, nobody would read it. Nobody cares.
I have nothing to tell you. I have nothing to show you. I am making my music and videos, they are not very good, they are getting better, I don’t have sex or love. THere is a girl who I love who I will not call because she rejected me too many times.
I don’t know how to enjoy life, it’s a real personal failing, like i’m not jealous of people, i just don’t think much of it. i probably will use some prostitutes next time i have some money, but i won’t enjoy it, i have been with so many prostitutes. i had a couple of girlfriends as well, people like me, i’m not a bad or stupid person, just a bit autistic or whatever it is.
When I was 18 I had this really weird phobia. I thought that I had wet myself, I don’t know what people thought of me, I was always stressed and went to the bathroom constantly. I was neveer there, I didn’t enjoy anything, I got really paranoid, like I went to parties and left, I had all of these images of myself. I missed so much of my life
It’s same for everyone, everyone is consumed by their psycopathy, I still did things, there was a girl who had the exact same insecurities as me who pulled me out of it I didn’t ever date her, we were best friends, we did fancy each other, but when I made friends with her it was all about her and all of my stupid stuff disappeared because yeah it is that thing, we are just on a rock together.
I had this anger when I get married and I kind of hated her. I mean there were reasons but not really, it was just stuff spewing out. But anyway, I have not heard from her for years becausse that is the world works, but she was my sister and my sister is always my sister.
She is married and doing some hippy bullshit last I heard, as my sister should, its not bullshit, it’s all stuff like good food and music, any way.
It’s weird now because it’s war, and you have to decide, and I like to think that I would die for her. she has a kid and a family and grows dandelions and listens to shit music, and yes, fuck it, i’d die for that, over tht capitalist false bullshit. i love her because she is a part of me. love you sister
What the fuck
You know a theme of my life that I have loved, I am in cities and I go all over the city and end up in these weird places, like every city has so many weird bits you just wouldn’t go to. like in Milan there is this weird bit full of russians drinking juice, in Hangzhou once I was in a huff with my girlfriend and I found this Temple of the Goddess and it was this really empty temple. Now I’m old, I don’t explore,
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